I'm gonna get a Golden Retriever when I move out from my parent's condo
I'm really frustrated right now. I'm having ALOT of problems. And its mostly related to my body and health. I don't get it, I live a healthy lifestyle but I don't get the healthy outcome.

Seriously, why is it so unfair?

Sighhh, i'm trying medication instead of detox now, since detoxing didn't work out well. But I defecate more now and that to me is a GREAT improvement. (:

Around a week ago, I completely lost it, I went psycho. I lost my temper and I just broke into tears. Its been a long time since I bowed down to pressure. I remembered the last time I did was last year, when I was going to sit for my Science test on the next day.

As for last week, I had ALOT of projects - and I'm not much of a person who likes working in groups because at the end of the day, I would do most of the work and on most occasions, I would do ALL of it. I'm not complaining, since I chose to do it on my own because I have trust issues.. I just can't trust my partners/group members even if I like them alot or they're very close to me. AND thats what my teachers told my parents on Parents' Day. They make me sound like I'm some lonely freak who's an anti-social.

And so, when I was doing this English project which I did in my own writing instead of my computer, since my computer broke down... So I was writing it with alot of problems in head, and it came out messy and ugly. My sister said it was pretty but I just couldn't approve it. And that was when I started crying.. I was angry I couldn't do it right.. and that if I measured the spacing of each letter it wouldn't end up that ugly.

My mom caught me crying and she started scolding me. My mom's way of comforting is through scolding. No joke. Even if I am used to her methods, it still hurt me. So after I recovered from crying, I just didn't bother about the assignment anymore.

I went to school and I told Ching Sze about it.. And she helped me out (: I got Mason and Jun Ying to do some of the work too. It didn't feel comfortable but it turned out okay.

I know.. I'm an idiot, but I had a lot to do. I spent 6 hours on my EST project on the eve of the due date because the-supposed-to-be-leader of the group backed out. AWESOME right? And my EVEN MORE AWESOME computer that connected to my printer broke down. I had to use my laptop and get my dad to print it outside which costed RM 66.80. And of course I got the group members to pay!

I'm gonna stop complaining now...

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