I went to Mid Valley yesterday and today, and it was a suffocating. There were so many shoppers/people I wanted to cry.
I went to MNG today and boy, its looks like a fish market more than a fashion outlet. My mom and I still went in anyways, because the word SALES has a big effect on us, and I'm sure to everybody else there.

I went to check out the bags, and saw one that I really liked. I have one almost similar to it, but still I liked the MNG one more. I was about to take it when this other lady, BURPED. Right in front of me. It smelled horrendous. It almost sting my eyes and I wanted to cry.

Then she took the bag I spotted in the first place. I was disgusted and equally mad... I went out of the store. But my mom was still in there, and the beautiful and colorful posters reading 70% and Sales were so appealing. I insisted on getting something. So, I went in again and hoped I don't see that lady again.

So yeah... I saw those single colored tops with no imprints whatsoever on it which I really like that costed RM 49. I wanted to get it, but my mom glanced at the queue and gave me the look. *sigh. It was time to go :(

oh well. I bought myself a copy of CLEO magazine and a novel, 7th Heaven by James Patterson. WITH MY OWN MONEY :( this does not feel good.

We went to the cinema to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. This one is definitely better than the first, and maybe because personally I find Zachary Levi pretty cute. Don't know who?

CHUCK from AXN? Yeah, him :D

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Tomorrow's the big 2010 aye?.. shite, that's fast.

Well I have a few resolutions I PRAY I will succeed in accomplishing.

I haven't been taking swimming seriously for quite some time now. Its been months since I last swim. It does things to my face because the water in the pool isn't clean. But now, I really want to swim again. It just hit me today, after watching Alvin and the Chipmunks, I wanted to swim again.

As for taking Form 4 seriously, I will try my best. I don't want to not work hard and regret later in Form 5, because I know SPM is unlike PMR. It won't be honeymoon for me, I will work hard to get what I want.

And my complexion. I don't know why my face is in this condition.. It wasn't this bad last year. I worked really hard this year, cleansing and moisturising my face 4 times a day, doing my masks daily and facial every month. My mother contributed alot, with all the payment. And seriously, its not cheap. My moisturiser costs RM 320, my cleanser RM 155 and my serum RM 200 plus. And the masks.. I best not talk about it, before I feel terribly guilty again. And they finish up real quick, thats the problem..

Sometimes, I really don't understand why my skin is treating me like this. Sometimes, I just wanna break down and cry. I don't get it. I did everything I can do, and the outcome's just disappointing. Its really unfair, for me. Looking and my friend's beautiful skin. Some of them don't even care about their complexion! (and they still look that good). Its really not fair when you're in my shoes. Its really not. I hate it you know, trying so hard and still not attaining what I want. I hate it really bad. But hopefully, its just a phase.. Optimists and friends tell me that. I have a hard time believing that because this "phase" just won't seem to go away.

And there's this one more thing, I stop myself from eating the food that I love that can activate breakouts on my face. I can't remember the last time I tasted my favourite Prawn Mee and Laksa. I don't even eat Nasi Lemak anymore. And when I get hungry at home, I eat apples instead of the chocolates my mom brought from Rome and the chips my neighbour rewarded me for taking care of the fishes.

That blows you know. It really does.

As for the novels, I wanna take them seriously.. If I wanna further study the English language, I should really start on reading novels (not that I haven't started) I just wanna improve my vocabulary. I think my grammar's just okay, but my vocab's really weak and my essays can get very boring sometimes.

So yeah..

RESOLUTIONS... does it work?

I'm pretty pissed right now.. Its raining, and I wanted to swim.

Happy New Year.