Chores, no allowance, no freedom, no computer, no TV, no NOTHING = my life.

Because of HER:
I can't use more than RM 20 by calling or sms-ing. If I did, I'll have to pay myself.
I can't get the ODM watch I've been craving about since 2006.
I can't get a new phone although my dad allows me to have it.
I HAVE to do chores even I have a maid at home.
I have to be complained to my relatives and friends.
I have to be criticised ALL THE TIME.
I can't sit in front of the computer for more than 2 hours.
I can't get money whenever I go out with my friends.
I always get spied whenever I go out with my guy friends or even girl friends.
My sister get whatever she wants for her birthday while I get something I DON'T want for my birthday.
I get far far far better grades than any of my siblings and all I get is COMPLAINS COMPLAINS AND COMPLAINS.
I get complimented by my teachers and she argues back about how terrible I am outside school.
I have to share every DARN secret with her even like crushes and who I sms so recently and THAT is an exception. I WON'T tell you any of my secrets. You'll be the last one I'll tell.

Who's she? Me mom.

The list can go on for more than a page. She goes to the saloon about 3 times a week and get massages once so recently and leave my siblings and I at home. I have to do the chores when she's not around. I have to baby-sit my siblings when she's not around. See... I'm not as lazy as she thinks I am all because she's too busy thinking about how bad I am till she forget the good side of me.

Oh yes, sure she remembers my drummin skills. But she uses MY drum skills to boast around. Whenever she passes by the musical instuments shop, she'll ask me to get my sticks on the drum. =.= And i'll sit there for a few seconds hit a bar of beat and run away as fast as possible. People were eyeing at me la. Surely they have "WHAT A SHOW OFF" in their heads. Its not me, its my mom. I can tell you, she makes excuses why I HAVE to play. She will say, " 那边又drum给你打，你又不打。你怎样practise?" [ there's a set of drums there for you to practise, why you don't practise?]

I'll just keep my mouth shut and walk away. And recently, my dad bought a REALLY nice Samsung phone. I can't remember the model. My dad raises his eyebrows and said "你要吗?"
[ you want? ]

Before I even get to answer, my mom quickly give her you-dare-meh? look to my dad and said in cantonese,"你给她我就跟你离婚." [If you give it to her, I'll make sure that we'll divorce] SHE THREATEN MY DAD, man... =.=" She's so evil.

*sighs* You get it now don't you Yi Ting?

I don't complain that she gets to go Japan coz I know my family is finacially poor. BUT SHE KEEPS TEASING US ABOUT HOW TERRIBLE OUR LIFE WOULD BE WHEN WE'RE IN MY GRANDPARENTS' HOUSE AND HOW FUN WOULD HER HOLIDAY BE IN JAPAN.
And no, she's not joking about it. Our days WILL be terrible when we're at my grandparents'. Thats because I have to do double the chores since my grandma is old and she wears alot of clothes. LAUNDRY T.T...

Might go to Mid Valley tonight to celebrate my sis's bday. My mom loves her soooo much. She gets everything. You don't see me celebrating my thirteenth birthday =.=... You don't see her wearing a happy smile when I went up the stage to get my prize. You don't see her saying, " good job" after getting my report card. You don't see her saying, "not bad" for being promoted as a junior head prefect. You don't see her being proud of me for being capable of so many things that she thinks is 无聊.

Pissed? Hell yeah. Guess where is she now? NOT AT HOME. So, off i go babysitting.

And she's leaving for Japan this Saturday. Seems like hell is arriving. *sighs*

Don't worry, I won't run away from home. Thats a stupid thing to do. I still have my dad. I still love him as much as he loves me =]

Although I always complain about you, mom, have a safe trip. I don't wish you to get hurt or anything although I dislike you THAT much. Neither do I want you dead. =.=

Bye

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