I'm currently lost. I don't know how to complete my project. It might be easy to some people but not to me.

The project is regarding Vision 2020 or more known as the future.

The title is sooo not suitable for a 13-year-old like me.

Title: What do you look for in your future husband. *gobsmacked*

How am I suppose to answer that? Okay, okay. Frankly, I do. But that's too PERSONAL.

What do I look for in a husband? :
Answer: I DON"T KNOW.

Lets just not think TOO far and just one normal question:
Describe your desirable significant other:
1. He has to be kind.
2. He MUST LOVE MUSIC.
3. He's got to be understanding.

Simple? Yeah. I'm just too young and immature. I don't go beyond my thinking zone. That's because I don't have the brains to XD. And this week I realise, many things occured.

First, friend no.1 got involved in a relationship that is actually quite impossible to happen. But, nothing matters when you're in love does it? Who am I to judge??

Second, friend no. 2 got broke up with her boyfriend because she can't stand him being such a flirt all the time. And plus, he has a crush on another girl which turns out to be a good friend of mine. XD.

Third, friend no. 3 got held hands with a hot guy and confided their love. I was like; OH MY GOD!!! *screams* You serious? Anyways, I'm happy for her. And this hot guy... is like so freakin' romantic. Friend no. 3 is sooo happy. I'd never seen her that happy in my entire life. She keeps smiling for no reason. I guess she's thinking of something....


Fourth, I'm such a loser. I mean it. I'm a failure. Many thinks I'm smart, well they say that because they compare me to people worse than me.I suck in almost EVERYTHING. People look at me and I know they're doing it in disgust so, I just back off and leave. Many say I've got low self-esteem. But I think I put my hopes TOO high that when I fail, I'll just give up anything else. I just expect too much thats all. And I daren't do that anymore. Which makes people think I've got low self-esteem. Everytime I fail , another bruise will form and wounds my heart. I don't know why. I just fail. Fail. Fail. Fail. Thats all I'm good at.

Well, thanks Meng Keat and Ze- Lyn. You guys are great. Sorry to say that the advices you give aren't working.I know I will fail this challenge like how I fail the others. I'll just wait and see.

Bloggers out there, I know this makes no sense. That's because you know nothing about what the challenge is. Nor the failure. And trust me, you wouldn't wanna know.